Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Did You Fall Down?

He asked me, his big brown eyes blinking sympathetically back at me.

"No baby... I didn't fall down."

"Did you fall in the kitchen and go bang on your elbow?"- with lots of swinging boy actions

"No sweetie, that's not what happened."

"Then why your elbow hurtin' mama?"

For the first time, Little Monkey has noticed me when I'm having a flare up. I applied the hot pad to my elbow and he looked for a boo boo he couldn't find or kiss. Before now, he was too small to see me when I winced from a movement gone badly. My body has decided with every degree cooler to slowly attack my right elbow yet again. I've been fighting a flare up in this elbow for almost 3 years now off and on. Some days are better than others.

"Come sit on my lap, Little Monkey. Mama has an invisible disease. That means sometimes I'm sick and you can't see it from the outside. Sometimes I'm tired and just need to rest to feel better. Now let's watch Paw Patrol."

He laid his sweet head on my shoulder and gave me the biggest hug.
I'm the blessed mom who gets to raise two sons. My rheumatoid arthritis will only show them how strong their mama is and how to be gentle with those who have chronic pain and invisible illnesses.

I'm determined to make this burden a blessing in their lives. 
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